I give in to my sexual desires despite my commitment to celibacy

I've always been committed to my faith, and as part of that commitment, I've also made a vow of celibacy. It's not an easy promise to keep, especially when I'm surrounded by the allure of young, sexy students at my college. I try to resist their charms, but sometimes, it's just too much for me. Recently, I found myself succumbing to my desires, and I can't help but wonder if I'm straying from my beliefs. Despite my reservations, I allowed myself to explore my sexuality in the privacy of my dorm room, alone and away from prying eyes. I indulged in my fantasies, letting my body take over as I pleasured myself. The experience was both exhilarating and terrifying, as I struggled with my conflicting feelings towards my faith and my newfound sexual awakening. As I reached the peak of my pleasure, I couldn't help but feel a twinge of guilt. But as I basked in the warm afterglow, I realized that my faith and my sexuality didn't have to be mutually exclusive.